Q:im sorry, im gonna sound so rude, but at least you have friends right? i'm actually jealous because i read your post and i can totally relate bc some of your problems are so similar to mine but i have this extreme avoidant personality disorder which sucks. i rly hope you'll get through this but on the other hand i see myself and just crying bc i literally i have no one i can talk to. i'm sorry if i just assume things, sorry if i'm making you feel bad for my negativity. i hope you'll be better
I’m extremely grateful for my friends and extremely lucky to have them. I’m highly avoidant of people too, even friends, for me to even have friends at all it takes persistent, confident people that want to befriend me since my anxiety and feelings about myself keep me from being able to reach out to people and maintain friendships. I’m really sorry you don’t have anyone, I know how awful that feels. I’ve been there as well. It does help me a lot to have them, but everyone has their own circumstances and reasons for feeling certain ways. I hope you’ll be able to find people like I have, there really are people out there that will value you and be understanding of your problems even if they’re difficult to find. Trust me, there have been points of my life where I never thought a single person on the face of the earth would like me or want to be my friend.
Q:If it helps, just know that there will always be people who will help and support you, I think reaching out to your friends is a good way and venting it out online is a good start. You're a really talented person! I'm positive that you'll get the strength to face your problems and you'll be strong enough to fight them (my english is really bad oh god). Just keep your head up, ok?
Aahh thank you for the sweet message. I do have people that help keep my head straight but it’s pretty difficult to talk to people about this sort of thing, somehow even more so when they’re close. It also just feels pretty burdensome, I don’t want to bother people with my problems. But I’m definitely trying to keep my head up even if it’s hard!
gonsthighs said: we haven’t talked in a while and i don’t really have anything great to say other than that i read your posts, and read this, and care a lot, and i hope you can get better eventually /hug
Aahh thank you. I’m sure moving out and getting away from my parents will help. Or I hope it does. But it’s still a while off unfortunately.
I’m feeling better, I just wanted to write out some of the shit that’s been going on in my head lately.
you logged off before I could finish this, so here! my tablet was lagging so I couldn’t do much
penguin gon to cheer you up when I am not up ; v ;)/
AaaaAAAHHHHh noooo this is too cute my heart can’t even handle this. You didn’t have to do this for me fhdkj oh my god. You’re way too sweet thank you!! I’m sorry I left suddenly last night, I just.. wasn’t really holding myself together very well but this made me smile a lot and definitely cheered me up, waahh thank you so much